“You really don’t know why I’m calling?” he asked.
“I’m sorry, but I don’t. This call LJ, it is a little unexpected.”
Anger flashed in his eye, even though Jonathon couldn’t see him. LJ was furious. It had after all been 4 months, so was it possible that they had no clue what had happened to their own daughter?
“Right. Because you’ve shown so much damn interest in us before.”
“Maybe I shouldn’t have called you. It probably was just a mistake.”
“LJ, it wasn’t a mistake to call. Now what’s this you said about your mother?”
He sat there, the phone pressed to his hear, staring at the floor, as if that would somehow give him answers, as if it would help. The shorter the phone call was, the better he thought. “Mom passes away more than 4 months ago. Did you even know that?”
There was silence on the other end of the line for several minutes, and when LJ heard a voice again, it wasn’t Jonathon, it was Charlotte.
“LJ, are you still there?”
“Yeah I’m here.”
“Can you please tell me what happened.”
“Like you really care.” he muttered, but it was loud enough for her to hear.
“Of course I care. No matter how strained our relationship was, she is still my daughter. Now please, can you tell me what happened.”
“She uh, she had breast cancer, she was sick for a long time, and she died July 20th.”
Charlotte inhaled a sharp breath which seemed to echo through the line. “But you were with her?”
“Yeah, so was my Dad.”
“I had no idea, I hadn’t spoken to her in so long, and when she called, she never mentioned anything about being ill.”
“So I guess she never said anything about being pregnant either?” He shot back.
“What are you talking about?”
“Mom had a baby about three weeks before she died. That’s why she was so sick, because she didn’t get any treatment because she didn't want to risk harming the baby.”
“is the baby alright?”
“Yeah, my little sister is just fine.” He said through gritted teeth.
“It’s a girl?”
“Her name is Lorelei.”
“Who’s taking care of her if Lisa is uh, where is she?”
“Dad’s looking after her.”
“Your father is?”
LJ hated that she sounded surprised by that, it just served to piss him of even more. “Yeah, they worked it out before she died, Dad is Lorelei’s legal guardian. See even though she isn’t his kid, he still wanted her.”
“LJ, can I speak to your father?”
“No you can’t. He’s not here, he’s gone to stay with someone who actually gives a damn.”
“LJ, you’re still young, you don’t understand the situation.” She replied.
“Yeah I do, I understand perfectly well. I know exactly what type of people you are, and I’m not so young. See something else that you have no clue about. I’m a father now, my son is 9 months old.”
“Like mother like son I see. You really do take after her.”
LJ saw red again. “Look, I just thought that you should know what happened. But I don’t need anything from you, you know nothing about me or my life and as far as I’m concerned, you can go to hell.”
He ended the call, and out of pure anger, he threw the phone across the room, it slammed into the wall, breaking in half and fell to the floor.
Christopher made his way down to the living room, he was surprised to see the lamp was turned on, and he saw his son sitting on the sofa.
As he moved further into the room, he could see that Lorelei was curled up in his arms, and Stuart was humming to her.
“Was she awake for long?”
Stuart looked up at him and smiled. “No, she went back to sleep pretty much straight away.”
Christopher sat down on the sofa opposite him. “You got that singing voice from your mother.”
Stuart studied him for a moment. “Really, I had no idea that she could sing.”
“When you were younger, she would do exactly what you’re doing now.”
Stuart glanced down at this daughter.
“She would be proud of you Stuart.”
“You think so?”
Christopher nodded back at him. “Yes she would be.”
Stuart leant back against the sofa cushions. “You think she’d be so proud to know that he son is gay?”
“She’d be proud of you no matter what, I’m sure that you haven’t forgotten, but you were her world Stuart. Everything she did, it was for you.”
“I guess it would just be nice if she were here to see this.”
They sat in a comfortable silence for several minutes.
“Everything is really working out for you, isn’t it?” He asked his son.
Stuart drew in a deep breath. “It really is, god you have no idea how much.”
“I think that I can see it. I think that I’ve been able to see it from the moment you walked in the door Stuart.” He told his son. “Oh and by the way, I’ll forgive you for not telling me about Lincoln sooner, and the fact that your grandmother knew before I did.”
Stuart started grinning. “Well, she kinda figured it out, when I called her awhile back, she knew that I was seeing someone, she dragged it out of me.”
“She thinks he’s wonderful by the way.“ Christopher added. “And I have to admit that he seems to be doing you the world of good.”
“I’m in love with him, but if you had asked me a few years ago, I never would have said that this would have happened. Not at all. But now that it has, I couldn’t imagine not having him, or her for that matter.”
“Then you’re lucky.” he replied.
“You know I thought that I had it all when I was with Chloe, but it wasn’t even close. Because its not only Lincoln and Lorelei I’ve gotten out of this, there’s Michael and Sara as well. Not to mention LJ who is a great kid, you’d really like him.”
“Well I hope that I get a chance, and soon to meet him.”
“You should see him with his boy Dad. I mean he is only 18, but he’s doing it right you know. That family, my life would pretty much suck without them.”
“Its not that family, its your family Stuart. And I’m sure that they know you as well as I do, so they get how lucky they are as well.”
“I’d like to think so.”
They sat in silence for several minutes, until Stuart sat forward on the sofa. “Dad.”
“I know that it wouldn’t be the same, not like it would have been with Chloe, but that doesn’t mean it wouldn’t feel like the same to us, cos its really just a bit of paper, its everything else that’s important right.” he told him.
“Stuart I’m sorry, but I’m not sure that I understand what you’re on about.”
“Its what I was saying, about loving him, because I really do. But I don‘t know if he‘s thinking it, or has ever thought about it, but I have, and ok sometimes I think its weird, or I think that other people will, but it means something to me. It always has, its why I asked Chloe, because its important, and it doesn‘t matter who it is right, as long as you love them.”
“Stuart, you‘re rambling again.” he pointed out.
“I wanna marry him Dad, in whatever sense that might mean.”